Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in lostsoul22's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
12:47 am	re-surface Ahh the occasional resurface to the physical world. Just letting you all know that i am indeed still alive. Hope life is treating everyone fair. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 23rd, 2004
2:43 pm	Things are looking up I guess in the wake of everything that happens in my life there's always something good to come out of the experience. I always seem to learn more about life and how fate works in such a twisted way. I have a new spark in my life and it's going well so far for having just ended a six month relationship. I've put the first three weeks i've been home out of my mind. I WIN !!!!! Fuck the world i always fucking win.Christina , i hope you know you have one of the greatest guys around in your life and i hope that our journey together has a different ending than previous fairytales. Take care people. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 13th, 2004
6:04 pm	Agonizing insides Well life throws , misery , pain , and a whole shitload of torment into my life again. I'm just about ready to move to a piece of land somewhere that has no people on it at all. I feel like locking the world in a box and sinking it down the to the deepest body of water out there. That way i don't have to deal with life anymore , 'cause right now i really don't want to deal with it. Holly and i are no longer together. My instinct and gut feeling about things that were occuring here have once again been proven true. She left me for another guy. But in some fucked up way she still loves me and still enjoys spending time with me. But she can't still be with me. how incredibly FUCKED is that. I don't understand what i do that makes people want to hurt me but it seems like the nice , caring , loving guys ALWAYS get royally FUCKED!!! Maybe i should start being an asshole and see where it gets me. I will once again turn my emotions off , and not feel anything again for a long time. Because it seems that Everytime i let myself feel it hurts more in the end. So FUCK the world and (no offense nursemengele you are still the coolest chick i've met) FUCK women and thier fucked up logic and emotions. 90% of them don't give a damn about anyone but themselves. so FUCK 'EM. Eric and Aerynn i miss you guys. It sucks not having anyone around that actually cares when shit like this happens. I can't wait for you guys to get home. See you when you return. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 10th, 2004
6:27 pm	Spinning out of control I screwed up pretty bad this past week. And i don't know how it's going to work out in the end but i sometimes wish that i never came back to Ct. Holly and i are having some relationship trouble , actually she is the same loving ,caring , fun ,and exciting girlfriend i had when i left. I have been the one having a real hard time grasping the fact that nothing actually happened while i was away at basic training. I know that deep in my heart that she would never hurt me , She's not that kind of person. I have just been so paranoid for no reason. I Love her more than anything and i hope that we work things out and that we can perhaps be even closer than we were before. I'm sorry sweetheart , you are the greatest thing to come into my life and i never want to imagine a day without you in it. Please forgive me and please never stop loving me. (Comment on this)
Friday, April 30th, 2004
5:37 pm	troubled thoughts I think at times life gets better. And that the mental struggle that i currently endure will cease to exsist. I strongly believe day after day that this will never happen. I feel like i'm about to loose the love of my life eventhough i know that she will be here for a while . Something just feels like it isn't making any sense. I like to here the truth from people and it feels like i am being deceived in couple different ways. Today is our six month anniversary. Happy anniversary sweetheart , i hope that our love is still as strong as it was before i left. I'll leave with this : In the beginning it seemed like i had noone in my life that made me feel great inside EVERY single day. Until i met you , the same passion i had for you the day i met you still burns the same way this very moment. You are the ove of my life I LOve you (Comment on this)